Wide Open
This ain’t no, well written shit to entertain you or to make your pussy wet. This is me, venting to myself, jotting down in my “notebook”, of how this woman got me from the first time she said my name in Speech class. The way a woman conducts herself far outweighs the fatness of her ass, and o’ my does this woman have class.
She’s 9 years my senior, with a child older than my little brother, yet, I’m still thinking of her. I can, bust my nut with whatever woman I like, or dislike, and thoughts of her will still fill my mind. She hasn’t given me a hug, a kiss, let alone let me enter her body…but I wish she would. It took me this whole semester just to get her damn phone number…it feels EARNED.
She told me, “I just got out of a relationship, so I don’t want to lead you on. I’m working on myself, school, and providing for my daughter.” Well shit baby, I don’t want to be your man…but damn, was I lying?
Looking into her eyes thinking, “damn this bitch is too fine.” Light-skin, thick, fly. Real hair, no makeup, not a damn thing fake touches her skin. No fast girl shit…the dress code of Anita Baker, with the mannerisms of Michelle Obama. Smile big and bright. I’m happy when I see it. Nah, she’s not my first crush. Bubbles used to glow. L used to glow. Jabs used to glow. She doesn’t just glow though, she’s the light. She almost made me nervous as I stood at the rear of her car listening to her words come out of those sexy ass lips.
Am I tripping? I don’t even have a reason. She has not done a damn thing for me, except call me and let me know when we have a test. I had to sit down and tell my uncle and he said I’m just crushing. I’ll be ok after I hit it. I know she’s not the one, well atleast I keep telling myself that. She has a kid, she can’t be the end of the “undresser” right? She’s not pushing a 2010 model whip, nor is she screaming AKA or Delta.
Damn you Steve Harvey. Telling me, “the first time I saw that woman, I knew she would be my wife. Took me years to become the man that deserved to be her husband.” Got me feeling that line something serious. Hearing songs play in my head.
Truth is though. She’s not here and I’m off to some chicks house who will fry chicken and let me super stroke her with no questions asked. Now when is a nigga ready to climb to the top of the apple tree, instead of shaking it and picking up the ones that fell on the ground?




21 Comments
4/23/2010
*smile*
10…9…8…7….
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4/23/2010
Awhile ago, many, many blogs ago, I said that when you are ready to settle down…it would NOT be the one you title “main” or a woman on your A-team. It will be a woman that makes you step up your game a little and take her seriously. Even if it is not this woman, then someone who makes you feel like this will have you come correct 100% of the time.
PS- Steve Harvey has been married a couple of times, and speaks highly of his women while he is married to them. Nevertheless, the words that he spoke are the truth, and if true, is a beautiful thing.
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April 24th, 2010 at 8:22 am
whoa, hold up. If Bubbles would not have acted a stone cold fool, she very well may have been the woman I settled down with. It is NOT because my mains weren’t the ones I would have done so with, it’s because they left before I got to the point, and I’m still NOT AT THAT POINT. I just like her, shit, last month I had a crush on Kalana, two months before that….Jasmine. I would have had to “step my game up” to get any of them and probably not ocme out and tell them stuff like “I have no interest in being in a committed relationship” and “I don’t want children, EVER.”
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April 24th, 2010 at 10:40 am
.Well, Uh which way is it…you are the one quoting Steve Harvey and hearing love ballads. But maybe your uncle is right and she is a crush at this time and you were/are having a moment.
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April 24th, 2010 at 12:25 pm
Nah. This isn’t a moment. This is different. It may be only momentary. But, it is quite different.
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April 24th, 2010 at 12:32 pm
Meant to say this isn’t the same…not this isn’t a moment…
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April 24th, 2010 at 3:35 pm
it can be both…you can think about love ballads when it’s a crush.
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4/24/2010
seriously, does diminishing marginal utility ring a bell? Just stop fooling yourself, she’s just another woman on the list to run through.
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4/25/2010
Uh..it sounds like L O V E……to me. I would sure like to see how this turns out. Keep us posted. She seems like a nice lady to keep around….
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4/25/2010
been reading your blog for a while, first time commenting,
umm i think you found love bruh, i think you may have reached the line that seperaets you from gettin a buncha booty, to settling down w. your “MAIN” ((ONLY ONE)) MAIN chick, not talking bout side chicks Jabs, or Bubbles, or any of em .ya feel me..
keep at this girl, and keep us posted
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April 25th, 2010 at 11:02 pm
love? lol. Not quite…I haven’t been anywhere with this woman, I barely know her.
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April 26th, 2010 at 12:48 am
not saying its love, “love” but a possible leading up to it or enough for her to catch your eye. like say you see a regular jump off and u like dam i wanna hit that, thats you thats what you do, but if you having totally different feelings for this girl right from the get go ((regardless of knowing her or not)) then it could possible be a potentiol “love” ((non groupie related)) interested. ya feel me?
follow ya heart bro!
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4/26/2010
I’mma need you to shake that shit off, smash, and carry on.
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April 27th, 2010 at 7:49 am
I feel you miss, trust me….pins are still being knocked down.
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4/26/2010
I cannot believe I just read this!! I could tell it was something completely out of your characteristic just from the way you wrote your first line. I hope this is something worth fighting for and you approach and treat the situation right. I don’t think you should try and pursue her sexually. Maybe it could lead to something more and you might end up selling yourself short. Good luck!
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4/26/2010
AAAAWWWWWW!!!!!!!!
Look atchuuuu *pats ur head* Ok, i’m joking. Lol
I was incredibly happy to read this, dont know why.
Maybe cause it’s proof anyone can change. At least for a few minutes. Lol
I think you should keep it up, and who knows???
She might be the one to change u! *GASP*
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April 27th, 2010 at 7:49 am
No woman can change a man, a man changes himself. What happens if she doesn’t wash dishes, clean, and cook? She’s gone faster than the crush I had. I haven’t even talked to the woman in the last few days.
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4/26/2010
i know what you mean..it’s exhilarating when someone stirs you in a way you haven’t felt in a long tme..or maybe even ever.
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April 27th, 2010 at 7:47 am
I definitely won’t say I haven’t felt that way ever…
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4/27/2010
“She doesn’t just glow though, she’s the light.” <– Nice!
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April 28th, 2010 at 7:52 am
don’t steal my shit!!! lol
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